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Sons and Lovers — Clara (Part 10 of 21)

`Because you don't understand it,' he retorted.

`Then why ask me about it?'

`Because I thought you would understand.'

She would shrug her shoulders in scorn of his work. She maddened him. He was furious. Then he abused her, and went into passionate exposition of his stuff. This amused and stimulated her. But she never owned that she had been wrong.

During the ten years that she had belonged to the women's movement she had acquired a fair amount of education, and, having had some of Miriam's passion to be instructed, had taught herself French, and could read in that language with a struggle. She considered herself as a woman apart, and particularly apart from her class. The girls in the spiral department were all of good homes. It was a small, special industry, and had a certain distinction. There was an air of refinement in both rooms. But Clara was aloof also from her fellow-workers.

None of these things, however, did she reveal to Paul. She was not the one to give herself away. There was a sense of mystery about her. She was so reserved, he felt she had much to reserve. Her history was open on the surface, but its inner meaning was hidden from everybody. It was exciting. And then sometimes he caught her looking at him from under her brows with an almost furtive, sullen scrutiny, which made him move quickly. Often she met his eyes. But then her own were, as it were, covered over, revealing nothing. She gave him a little, lenient smile. She was to him extraordinarily provocative, because of the knowledge she seemed to possess, and gathered fruit of experience he could not attain.

One day he picked up a copy of `Lettres de mon Moulin' from her work-bench.

`You read French, do you?' he cried.

Clara glanced round negligently. She was making an elastic stocking of heliotrope silk, turning the spiral machine with slow, balanced regularity, occasionally bending down to see her work or to adjust the needles; then her magnificent neck, with its down and fine pencils of hair, shone white against the lavender, lustrous silk. She turned a few more rounds, and stopped.

`What did you say?' she asked, smiling sweetly.

Paul's eyes glittered at her insolent indifference to him.

`I did not know you read French,' he said, very polite.

`Did you not?' she replied, with a faint, sarcastic smile.

`Rotten swank!' he said, but scarcely loud enough to be heard.

He shut his mouth angrily as he watched her. She seemed to scorn the work she mechanically produced; yet the hose she made were as nearly perfect as possible.

`You don't like spiral work,' he said.

`Oh, well, all work is work,' she answered, as if she knew all about it.

He marvelled at her coldness. He had to do everything hotly. She must be something special.

`What would you prefer to do?' he asked.

She laughed at him indulgently, as she said: