My Spectre around me night and day
Written circa 1800-1810
My spectre around me night and day
Like a wild beast guards my way;
My Emanation far within
incessantly for my sin.
`A fathomless and boundless deep,
There we wander, there we weep;
hungry craving wind
My Spectre follows thee behind.
`He scents thy footsteps in the snow,
thou dost go,
Thro' the wintry hail and rain.
When wilt thou return again?
`Dost thou not in pride and
Fill with tempests all my morn,
And with jealousies and fears
Fill my pleasant nights with tears?
`Seven of my sweet loves thy knife
Has bereavèd of their life.
Their marble tombs I built with tears,
with cold and shuddering fears.
`Seven more loves weep night and day
Round the tombs where my
And seven more loves attend each night
Around my couch with torches bright.
more loves in my bed
Crown with wine my mournful head,
Pitying and forgiving all
great and small.
`When wilt thou return and view
My loves, and them to life renew?
When wilt thou
return and live?
When wilt thou pity as I forgive?'
`O'er my sins thou sit and moan:
Hast thou no sins
of thy own?
O'er my sins thou sit and weep,
And lull thy own sins fast asleep.
`What transgressions I
Are for thy transgressions fit.
They thy harlots, thou their slave;
And my bed becomes their grave.
`Never, never, I return:
Still for victory I burn.
Living, thee alone I'll have;
And when dead I'll be thy grave.
`Thro' the Heaven and Earth and Hell
Thou shalt never, never quell:
I will fly and thou pursue:
morn the flight renew.'
`Poor, pale, pitiable form
That I follow in a storm;
Iron tears and groans of lead
around my aching head.
`Till I turn from Female love
And root up the Infernal Grove,
I shall never worthy
To step into Eternity.
`And, to end thy cruel mocks,
Annihilate thee on the rocks,
And another form
To be subservient to my fate.
`Let us agree to give up love,
And root up the Infernal Grove;
shall we return and see
The worlds of happy Eternity.
`And throughout all Eternity
I forgive you, you
As our dear Redeemer said:
"This the Wine, and this the Bread."'
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