Presentiments are strange things! and so are sympathies; and so are signs; and the three combined make one mystery to which humanity has not yet found the key. I never laughed at presentiments in my life, because I have had strange ones of my own. Sympathies, I believe, exist (for instance, between far-distant, long-absent, wholly estranged relatives asserting, notwithstanding their alienation, the unity of the source to which each traces his origin) whose workings baffle mortal comprehension. And signs, for aught we know, may be but the sympathies of Nature with man.
When I was a little girl, only six years old, I one night heard Bessie Leaven say to Martha Abbot that she had been dreaming about a little child; and that to dream of children was a sure sign of trouble, either to ones self or ones kin. The saying might have worn out of my memory, had not a circumstance immediately followed which served indelibly to fix it there. The next day Bessie was sent for home to the deathbed of her little sister.
Of late I had often recalled this saying and this incident; for during the past week scarcely a night had gone over my couch that had not brought with it a dream of an infant, which I sometimes hushed in my arms, sometimes dandled on my knee, sometimes watched playing with daisies on a lawn, or again, dabbling its hands in running water. It was a wailing child this night, and a laughing one the next: now it nestled close to me, and now it ran from me; but whatever mood the apparition evinced, whatever aspect it wore, it failed not for seven successive nights to meet me the moment I entered the land of slumber.
I did not like this iteration of one ideathis strange recurrence of one image, and I grew nervous as bedtime approached and the hour of the vision drew near. It was from companionship with this baby- phantom I had been roused on that moonlight night when I heard the cry; and it was on the afternoon of the day following I was summoned downstairs by a message that some one wanted me in Mrs. Fairfaxs room. On repairing thither, I found a man waiting for me, having the appearance of a gentlemans servant: he was dressed in deep mourning, and the hat he held in his hand was surrounded with a crape band.
I daresay you hardly remember me, Miss, he said, rising as I entered; but my name is Leaven: I lived coachman with Mrs. Reed when you were at Gateshead, eight or nine years since, and I live there still.
Oh, Robert! how do you do? I remember you very well: you used to give me a ride sometimes on Miss Georgianas bay pony. And how is Bessie? You are married to Bessie?
Yes, Miss: my wife is very hearty, thank you; she brought me another little one about two months sincewe have three nowand both mother and child are thriving.
And are the family well at the house, Robert?
I am sorry I cant give you better news of them, Miss: they are very badly at presentin great trouble.
I hope no one is dead, I said, glancing at his black dress. He too looked down at the crape round his hat and replied
Mr. John died yesterday was a week, at his chambers in London.
And how does his mother bear it?
Why, you see, Miss Eyre, it is not a common mishap: his life has been very wild: these last three years he gave himself up to strange ways, and his death was shocking.
I heard from Bessie he was not doing well.
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