liked to remain silent. At last Mr Harding, taking advantage of a pause, escaped from the room, and Eleanor and Mr Arabin were left together.

‘Your going will be a great break–up to our party,’ said he.

She again muttered something which was all but inaudible; but kept her eyes fixed upon her work.

‘We have had a very pleasant month her,’ said he; ‘at least I have; and I am sorry it should be so soon over.’

‘I have already been from home longer than I intended,’ she said; ‘and it is time that I should return.’

‘Well, pleasant hours and pleasant days must come to an end. It is a pity that so few of them are pleasant; or perhaps rather—’

‘It is a pity, certainly, that men and women do so much to destroy the pleasantness of their days,’ said she, interrupting him. ‘It is a pity that there should be so little charity abroad.’

‘Charity should begin at home,’ said he; and he was proceeding to explain that he as a clergyman could not be what she would call charitable at the expense of those principles which he considered it his duty to teach, when he remembered that it would be worse than vain to argue on such a matter with the future wife of Mr Slope. ‘But you are just leaving us,’ he continued, ‘and I will not weary your last hour with another lecture. As it is, I fear I have given you too many.’

‘You should practise as well as preach, Mr Arabin?’

‘Undoubtedly I should. So should we all. All of us who presume to teach are bound to do our utmost towards fulfilling our own lessons. I thoroughly allow my deficiency in doing so; but I do not quite know now to what you allude. Have you any special reason for telling me now that I should practise as well as preach?’

Eleanor made no answer. She longed to let him know the cause of her anger, to upbraid him for speaking of her disrespectfully, and then at last forgive him, and so part friends. She felt that she would be unhappy to leave him in her present frame of mind; but yet she could hardly bring herself to speak to him of Mr Slope. And how could she allude to the innuendo thrown out by the archdeacon, and thrown out, as she believed, at the instigation of Mr Arabin? She wanted to make him know that he was wrong, to make him aware that he had ill–treated her, in order that the sweetness of her forgiveness might be enhanced. She felt that she liked him too well to be contented to part with him in displeasure; and yet she could not get over her deep displeasure without some explanation, some acknowledgement, on his part, some assurance that he would never again so sin against her.

‘Why do you tell me that I should practise what I preach?’ continued he.

‘All men should do so.’

‘Certainly. That is as it were understood and acknowledged. But you do not say so to all men, or to all clergymen. The advice, good as it is, is not given except in allusion to some special deficiency. If you will tell me my special deficiency, I will endeavour to profit by the advice.’

She paused for a while, and then looking full in his face, she said, ‘You are not bold enough, Mr Arabin, to speak out to me openly and plainly, and yet you expect me, a woman, to speak openly to you. Why did you speak calumny of me to Dr Grantly behind my back?’

‘Calumny!’ said he, and his whole face became suffused with blood; ‘what calumny? If I have spoken calumny of you, I will beg your pardon, and his to whom I spoke it, and God’s pardon also. But what calumny have I spoken of you to Dr Grantly?’


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