SHE has come to stay with me, said Princess Marya. The count and the countess will be here in a few days. The countess is in a terrible state. But Natasha herself had to see the doctors. They made her come away with me.
Yes. Is there a family without its own sorrow? said Pierre, turning to Natasha. You know it happened the very day we were rescued. I saw him. What a splendid boy he was!
Natasha looked at him, and, in answer to his words, her eyes only opened wider and grew brighter.
What can one say, or think, to give comfort? said Pierre. Nothing. Why had he to die, such a noble boy, so full of life?
Yes; in these days it would be hard to live without faith said Princess Marya.
Yes, yes. That is true, indeed, Pierre put in hurriedly.
How so? Natasha asked, looking intently into Pierres eyes.
How so? said Princess Marya. Why, only the thought of what awaits
Natasha, not heeding Princess Maryas words, looked again inquiringly at Pierre.
And because, Pierre went on, only one who believes that there is a God guiding our lives can bear such a loss as hers, and yours, said Pierre.
Natasha opened her mouth, as though she would say something, but she suddenly stopped.
Pierre made haste to turn away from her, and to address Princess Marya again with a question about the last days of his friends life. Pierres embarrassment had by now almost disappeared, but at the same time he felt that all his former freedom had vanished too. He felt that there was now a judge criticising every word, every action of his; a judge whose verdict was of greater consequence to him than the verdict of all the people in the world. As he talked now he was considering the impression his words were making on Natasha as he uttered them. He did not intentionally say what might please her; but whatever he said, he looked at himself from her point of view.
With the unwillingness usual in such cases, Princess Marya began telling Pierre of the position in which she had found her brother. But Pierres questions, his eagerly restless glance, his face quivering with emotion, gradually induced her to go into details which she shrank, for her own sake, from recalling to her imagination.
Yes, yes, said Pierre, bending forward over Princess Marya, and eagerly drinking in her words. Yes, yes. So he found peace? He was softened? He was always striving with his whole soul for one thing only: to be entirely good, so that he could not dread death. The defects that were in himif he had anydid not come from himself. So he was softened? he said.
What a happy thing that he saw you again, he said to Natasha, turning suddenly to her, and looking at her with eyes full of tears.
Natashas face quivered. She frowned, and for an instant dropped her eyes. For a moment she hesitated whether to speak or not to speak.
Yes, it was a great happiness, she said in a low, deep voice; for me it was certainly a great happiness. She paused. And he he he told me he was longing for it the very moment I went in to him Natashas voice broke. She flushed, squeezed her hands against her knees and suddenly, with an evident effort to control herself, she lifted her head and began speaking rapidly:
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