After this, Clifford became like a child with Mrs Bolton. He would hold her h, and rest his head on her
breast, and when she once lightly kissed him, he said! `Yes! Do kiss me! Do kiss me!' And when she
sponged his great blond body, he would say the same! `Do kiss me!' and she would lightly kiss his body,
anywhere, half in mockery.
And he lay with a queer, blank face like a child, with a bit of the wonderment of a child. And he would
gaze on her with wide, childish eyes, in a relaxation of madonna-worship. It was sheer relaxation on
his part, letting go all his manhood, and sinking back to a childish position that was really perverse.
And then he would put his hand into her bosom and feel her breasts, and kiss them in exultation, the
exultation of perversity, of being a child when he was a man.
Mrs Bolton was both thrilled and ashamed, she both loved and hated it. Yet she never rebuffed nor
rebuked him. And they drew into a closer physical intimacy, an intimacy of perversity, when he was a
child stricken with an apparent candour and an apparent wonderment, that looked almost like a religious
exaltation: the perverse and literal rendering of: `except ye become again as a little child'.---While she
was the Magna Mater, full of power and potency, having the great blond child-man under her will and
her stroke entirely.
The curious thing was that when this child-man, which Clifford was now and which he had been becoming
for years, emerged into the world, it was much sharper and keener than the real man he used to be.
This perverted child-man was now a real business-man; when it was a question of affairs, he was an
absolute he-man, sharp as a needle, and impervious as a bit of steel. When he was out among men,
seeking his own ends, and `making good' his colliery workings, he had an almost uncanny shrewdness,
hardness, and a straight sharp punch. It was as if his very passivity and prostitution to the Magna Mater
gave him insight into material business affairs, and lent him a certain remarkable inhuman force. The
wallowing in private emotion, the utter abasement of his manly self, seemed to lend him a second nature,
cold, almost visionary, business-clever. In business he was quite inhuman.
And in this Mrs Bolton triumphed. `How he's getting on!' she would say to herself in pride. `And that's
my doing! My word, he'd never have got on like this with Lady Chatterley. She was not the one to put a
man forward. She wanted too much for herself.'
At the same time, in some corner of her weird female soul, how she despised him and hated him! He
was to her the fallen beast, the squirming monster. And while she aided and abetted him all she could,
away in the remotest corner of her ancient healthy womanhood she despised him with a savage contempt
that knew no bounds. The merest tramp was better than he.
His behaviour with regard to Connie was curious. He insisted on seeing her again. He insisted, moreover,
on her coming to Wragby. On this point he was finally and absolutely fixed. Connie had promised to
come back to Wragby, faithfully.
`But is it any use?' said Mrs Bolton. `Can't you let her go, and be rid of her?'
`No! She said she was coming back, and she's got to come.'
Mrs Bolton opposed him no more. She knew what she was dealing with.
I needn't tell you what effect your letter has had on me [he wrote to Connie to London]. Perhaps you
can imagine it if you try, though no doubt you won't trouble to use your imagination on my behalf.
I can only say one thing in answer: I must see you personally, here at Wragby, before I can do anything.
You promised faithfully to come back to Wragby, and I hold you to the promise. I don't believe anything
nor understand anything until I see you personally, here under normal circumstances. I needn't tell you
that nobody here suspects anything, so your return would be quite normal. Then if you feel, after we
have talked things over, that you still remain in the same mind, no doubt we can come to terms.