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Come down, you say? Well, that renders my sense of what has happened to you. You seemed to me to be soaring far up in the blueto be sailing in the bright light, over the heads of men. Suddenly some one tosses up a faded rosebuda missile that should never have reached youand straight you drop to the ground. It hurts me, said Ralph audaciously, hurts me as if I had fallen myself! The look of pain and bewilderment deepened in his companions face. I dont understand you in the least, she repeated. You say you amused yourself with a project for my careerI dont understand that. Dont amuse yourself too much, or I shall think youre doing it at my expense. Ralph shook his head. Im not afraid of your not believing that Ive had great ideas for you. What do you mean by my soaring and sailing? she pursued. Ive never moved on a higher plane than Im moving on now. Theres nothing higher for a girl than to marry aa person she likes, said poor Isabel, wandering into the didactic. Its your liking the person we speak of that I venture to criticize, my dear cousin. I should have said that the man for you would have been a more active, larger, freer sort of nature. Ralph hesitated, then added: I cant get over the sense that Osmond is somehowwell, small. He had uttered the last word with no great assurance; he was afraid she would flash out again. But to his surprise she was quiet; she had the air of considering. Small? She made it sound immense. I think hes narrow, selfish. He takes himself so seriously! He has a great respect for himself; I dont blame him for that, said Isabel. It makes one more sure to respect others. Ralph for a moment felt almost reassured by her reasonable tone. Yes, but everything is relative; one ought to feel ones relation to thingsto others. I dont think Mr Osmond does that. Ive chiefly to do with his relation to me. In that hes excellent. Hes the incarnation of taste, Ralph went on, thinking hard how he could best express Gilbert Osmonds sinister attributes without putting himself in the wrong by seeming to describe him coarsely. He wished to describe him impersonally, scientifically. He judges and measures, approves and condemns, altogether by that. Its a happy thing then that his taste should be exquisite. Its exquisite, indeed, since it has led him to select you as his bride. But have you ever seen such a tastea really exquisite oneruffled? I hope it may never be my fortune to fail to gratify my husbands. At these words a sudden passion leaped to Ralphs lips. Ah, thats wilful, thats unworthy of you! You were not meant to be measured in that wayyou were meant for something better than to keep guard over the sensibilities of a sterile dilettante! Isabel rose quickly and he did the same, so that they stood for a moment looking at each other as if he had flung down a defiance or an insult. But You go too far, she simply breathed. Ive said what I had on my mindand Ive said it because I love you! |
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