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and free in her movement that her very pliancy seemed to mock at him. Her eyes, however, saw nothing; they had suddenly been suffused with tears. In a moment he followed her, and by this time she had brushed her tears away; but when she turned round her face was pale and the expression of her eyes strange. That reason that I wouldnt tell youIll tell it you after all. Its that I cant escape my fate. Your fate? I should try to escape it if I were to marry you. I dont understand. Why should not that be your fate as well as anything else? Because its not, said Isabel femininely. I know its not. Its not my fate to give upI know it cant be. Poor Lord Warburton stared, an interrogative point in either eye. Do you call marrying me giving up? Not in the usual sense. Its gettinggettinggetting a great deal. But its giving up other chances. Other chances for what? I dont mean chances to marry, said Isabel, her colour quickly coming back to her. And then she stopped, looking down with a deep frown, as if it were hopeless to attempt to make her meaning clear. I dont think it presumptuous in me to suggest that youll gain more than youll lose, her companion observed. I cant escape unhappiness, said Isabel. In marrying you I shall be trying to. I dont know whether youd try to, but you certainly would: that I must in candour admit! he exclaimed with an anxious laugh. I mustntI cant! cried the girl. Well, if youre bent on being miserable I dont see why you should make me so. Whatever charms a life of misery may have for you, it has none for me. Im not bent on a life of misery, said Isabel. Ive always been intensely determined to be happy, and Ive often believed I should be. Ive told people that; you can ask them. But it comes over me every now and then that I can never be happy in any extraordinary way; not by turning away, by separating myself. By separating yourself from what? From life. From the usual chances and dangers, from what most people know and suffer. Lord Warburton broke into a smile that almost denoted hope. Why, my dear Miss Archer, he began to explain with the most considerate eagerness, I dont offer you any exoneration from life or from any chances or dangers whatever. I wish I could; depend upon it I would! For what do you take me, pray? Heaven help me, Im not the Emperor of China! All I offer you is the chance of taking the common lot in a comfortable sort of way. The common lot? Why, Im devoted to the common lot! Strike an alliance with me, and I promise you that you shall have plenty of it. You shall separate from nothing whatevernot even from your friend Miss Stackpole. Shed never approve of it, said Isabel, trying to smile and take advantage of this side-issue; despising herself too, not a little, for doing so. Are we speaking of Miss Stackpole? his lordship asked impatiently. I never saw a person judge things on such theoretic grounds. |
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