She at last concluded that, so far as circumstances permitted, she would be honest and candid with one who entered into her difficulties like an aged friend.
`There is going to be another in our family soon,' she hesitatingly remarked.
`There is going to be another baby.'
`What!' The boy jumped up wildly. `Oh God, Mother, you've never a-sent for another; and such trouble with what you've got!'
`Yes, I have, I am sorry to say!' murmured Sue, her eyes glistening with suspended tears.
The boy burst out weeping. `Oh you don't care, you don't care!' he cried in bitter reproach. `How ever could you, Mother, be so wicked and cruel as this, when you needn't have done it till we was better off, and Father well! To bring us all into more trouble! No room for us, and Father a-forced to go away, and we turned out to-morrow; and yet you be going to have another of us soon! ... 'Tis done o' purpose! - 'tis - 'tis!' He walked up and down sobbing.
`Y-you must forgive me, little Jude!' she pleaded, her bosom heaving now as much as the boy's. `I can't explain - I will when you are older. It does seem - as if I had done it on purpose, now we are in these difficulties! I can't explain, dear! But it - is not quite on purpose - I can't help it!'
`Yes it is - it must be! For nobody would interfere with us, like that, unless you agreed! I won't forgive you, ever, ever! I'll never believe you care for me, or Father, or any of us any more!'
He got up, and went away into the closet adjoining her room, in which a bed had been spread on the floor. There she heard him say: `If we children was gone there'd be no trouble at all!'
`Don't think that, dear,' she cried, rather peremptorily. `But go to sleep!'
The following morning she awoke at a little past six, and decided to get up and run across before breakfast to the inn which Jude had informed her to be his quarters, to tell him what had happened before he went out. She arose softly, to avoid disturbing the children, who, as she knew, must be fatigued by their exertions of yesterday.
She found Jude at breakfast in the obscure tavern he had chosen as a counterpoise to the expense of her lodging: and she explained to him her homelessness. He had been so anxious about her all night, he said. Somehow, now it was morning, the request to leave the lodgings did not seem such a depressing incident as it had seemed the night before, nor did even her failure to find another place affect her so deeply as at first. Jude agreed with her that it would not be worth while to insist upon her right to stay a week, but to take immediate steps for removal.
`You must all come to this inn for a day or two,' he said. `It is a rough place, and it will not be so nice for the children, but we shall have more time to look round. There are plenty of lodgings in the suburbs - in my old quarter of Beersheba. Have breakfast with me now you are here, my bird. You are sure you are well? There will be plenty of time to get back and prepare the children's meal before they wake. In fact, I'll go with you.'
She joined Jude in a hasty meal, and in a quarter of an hour they started together, resolving to clear out from Sue's too respectable lodging immediately. On reaching the place and going upstairs she found that all was quiet in the children's room, and called to the landlady in timorous tones to please bring up the tea-kettle and something for their breakfast. This was perfunctorily done, and producing a couple of eggs which she had brought with her she put them into the boiling kettle, and summoned Jude to watch them for the youngsters, while she went to call them, it being now about half-past eight o'clock.
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