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a horrible suspicion hanging over me if Grigory has given evidence. A horrible suspicion! Its awful, awful, I understand that! But to business, gentlemen, I am ready, and we will make an end of it in one moment; for, listen, listen, gentlemen! Since I know Im innocent, we can put an end to it in a minute. Cant we? Cant we? Mitya spoke much and quickly, nervously and effusively, as though he positively took his listeners to be his best friends. So, for the present, we will write that you absolutely deny the charge brought against you, said Nikolay Parfenovitch, impressively, and bending down to the secretary he dictated to him in an undertone what to write. Write it down? You want to write that down? Well, write it; I consent, I give my full consent, gentlemen, only do you see. Stay, stay, write this. Of disorderly conduct I am guilty, of violence on a poor old man I am guilty. And there is something else at the bottom of my heart, of which I am guilty, toobut that you need not write down (he turned suddenly to the secretary); thats my personal life, gentlemen, that doesnt concern you, the bottom of my heart, thats to say. But of the murder of my old father Im not guilty. Thats a wild idea. Its quite a wild idea! I will prove you that and youll be convinced directly. You will laugh, gentlemen. Youll laugh yourself at your suspicion! Be calm, Dmitri Fyodorovitch, said the investigating lawyer, evidently trying to allay Mityas excitement by his own composure. Before we go on with our inquiry, I should like, if you will consent to answer, to hear you confirm the statement that you disliked your father, Fyodor Pavlovitch, that you were involved in continual disputes with him. Here at least, a quarter of an hour ago, you exclaimed that you wanted to kill him: I didnt kill him, you said, but I wanted to kill him? Did I exclaim that? Ach, that may be so, gentlemen! Yes, unhappily. I did want to kill him many times I wanted to unhappily, unhappily! You wanted to. Would you consent to explain what motives precisely led you to such a sentiment of hatred for your parent? What is there to explain, gentlemen? Mitya shrugged his shoulders sullenly, looking down. I have never concealed my feelings. All the town knows about itevery one knows in the tavern. Only lately I declared them in Father Zossimas cell. And the very same day, in the evening I beat my father. I nearly killed him, and I swore Id come again and kill him, before witnesses. Oh, a thousand witnesses! Ive been shouting it aloud for the last month, any one can tell you that! The fact stares you in the face, it speaks for itself, it cries aloud, but, feelings, gentlemen, feelings are another matter. You see, gentlemen (Mitya frowned), it seems to me that about feelings youve no right to question me. I know that you are bound by your office, I quite understand that, but thats my affair, my private, intimate affair, yet since I havent concealed my feelings in the past in the tavern, for instance, Ive talked to every one, so so I wont make a secret of it now. You see, I understand, gentlemen, that there are terrible facts against me in this business. I told every one that Id kill him, and now, all of a sudden, hes been killed. So it must have been me! Ha, ha! I can make allowances for you, gentlemen, I can quite make allowances. Im struck all of a heap myself, for who can have murdered him, if not I? Thats what it comes to, isnt it? If not I, who can it be, who? Gentlemen, I want to know, I insist on knowing! He exclaimed suddenly. Where was he murdered? How was he murdered? How, and with what? Tell me, he asked quickly, looking at the two lawyers. We found him in his study, lying on his back on the floor, with his head battered in, said the prosecutor. Thats horrible! Mitya shuddered and, putting his elbows on the table, hid his face in his right hand. We will continue, interposed Nikolay Parfenovitch. So what was it that impelled you to this sentiment of hatred? You have asserted in public, I believe, that it was based upon jealousy? |
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