knocking; someone seemed to be hammering He went to the window, rose on tiptoe and looked out into the yard for a long time with an air of absorbed attention. But the yard was empty and he could not see who was hammering. In the house on the left he saw some open windows; on the window-sills were pots of sickly-looking geraniums. Linen was hung out of the windows He knew it all by heart. He turned away and sat down on the sofa.
Never, never had he felt himself so fearfully alone!
Yes, he felt once more that he would perhaps come to hate Sonia, now that he had made her more miserable.
Why had he gone to her to beg for her tears? What need had he to poison her life? Oh, the meanness of it!
I will remain alone, he said resolutely, and she shall not come to the prison!
Five minutes later he raised his head with a strange smile. That was a strange thought.
Perhaps it really would be better in Siberia, he thought suddenly.
He could not have said how long he sat there with vague thoughts surging through his mind. All at once the door opened and Dounia came in. At first she stood still and looked at him from the doorway, just as he had done at Sonia; then she came in and sat down in the same place as yesterday, on the chair facing him. He looked silently and almost vacantly at her.
Dont be angry, brother; Ive only come for one minute, said Dounia.
Her face looked thoughtful but not stern. Her eyes were bright and soft. He saw that she too had come to him with love.
Brother, now I know all, all. Dmitri Prokofitch has explained and told me everything. They are worrying and persecuting you through a stupid and contemptible suspicion. Dmitri Prokofitch told me that there is no danger, and that you are wrong in looking upon it with such horror. I dont think so, and I fully understand how indignant you must be, and that that indignation may have a permanent effect on you. Thats what I am afraid of. As for your cutting yourself off from us, I dont judge you, I dont venture to judge you, and forgive me for having blamed you for it. I feel that I too, if I had so great a trouble, should keep away from everyone. I shall tell mother nothing of this, but I shall talk about you continually and shall tell her from you that you will come very soon. Dont worry about her; I will set her mind at rest; but dont you try her too muchcome once at least; remember that she is your mother. And now I have come simply to say (Dounia began to get up) that if you should need me or should need all my life or anything call me, and Ill come. Good-bye!
She turned abruptly and went towards the door.
Dounia! Raskolnikov stopped her and went towards her. That Razumihin, Dmitri Prokofitch, is a very good fellow.
Dounia flushed slightly.
Well? she asked, waiting a moment.
He is competent, hardworking, honest and capable of real love. Good-bye, Dounia.
Dounia flushed crimson, then suddenly she took alarm.
But what does it mean, brother? Are we really parting for ever that you give me such a parting message?
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