confided to other hands - he would never believe that it could bear for another all the meaning and the beauty it bears for him.

I dared not trust myself to see you that morning - I was filled with selfish passion; I was shattered by a night of conscious delirium. I told you long ago that I had never been resigned even to the mediocrity of my powers: how could I be resigned to the loss of the one thing which had ever come to me on earth with the promise of such deep joy as would give a new and blessed meaning to the foregoing pain, - the promise of another self that would lift my aching affection into the divine rapture of an ever-springing, ever-satisfied want?

But the miseries of that night had prepared me for what came before the next. It was no surprise to me. I was certain that he had prevailed on you to sacrifice everything to him, and I waited with equal certainty to hear of your marriage. I measured your love and his by my own. But I was wrong, Maggie. There is something stronger in you than your love for him.

I will not tell you what I went through in that interval. But even in its utmost agony - even in those terrible throes that love must suffer before it can be disembodied of selfish desire - my love for you sufficed to withhold me from suicide, without the aid of any other motive. In the midst of my egoism, I yet could not bear to come like a death-shadow across the feast of your joy: I could not bear to forsake the world in which you still lived and might need me: it was part of the faith I had vowed to you, to wait and endure. Maggie, that is a proof of what I write now to assure you of - that no anguish I have had to bear on your account has been too heavy a price to pay for the new life into which I have entered in loving you. I want you to put aside all grief because of the grief you have caused me. I was nurtured in the sense of privation: I never expected happiness: and in knowing you, in loving you, I have had, and still have, what reconciles me to life. You have been to my affections what light, what colour is to my eyes - what music it to the inward ear: you have raised a dim unrest into a vivid consciousness. The new life I have found in caring for your joy and sorrow more than for what is directly my own, has transformed the spirit of rebellious murmuring into that willing endurance which is the birth of strong sympathy. I think nothing but such complete and intense love could have initiated me into that enlarged life which grows and grows by appropriating the life of others; for before, I was always dragged back from it by ever-present painful self-consciousness. I even think sometimes that this gift of transferred life which has come to me in loving you, may be a new power to me.

Then - dear one - in spite of all, you have been the blessing of my life. Let no self-reproach weigh on you because of me. It is I, who should rather reproach myself for having urged my feelings upon you and hurried you into words that you have felt as fetters. You meant to be true to those words; you have been true: I can measure your sacrifice by what I have known in only one half-hour of your presence with me when I dreamed that you might love me best. But, Maggie, I have no just claim on you for more than affectionate remembrance.

For some time I have shrunk from writing to you, because I have shrunk even from the appearance of wishing to thrust myself before you, and so repeating my original error. But you will not misconstrue me. I know that we must keep apart for a long while; cruel tongues would force us apart, if nothing else did. But I shall not go away. The place where you are is one where my mind must live, wherever I might travel. And remember that I am unchangeably yours: yours - not with selfish wishes - but with a devotion that excludes such wishes.

God comfort you, - my loving, large-souled Maggie. If every one else had misconceived you - remember that you have never been doubted by him whose heart recognised you ten years ago.

Do not believe any one who says I am ill because I am not seen out of doors. I have only had nervous headaches - no worse than I have sometimes had them before. But the overpowering heat inclines me to be perfectly quiescent in the daytime. I am strong enough to obey any word which shall tell me that I can serve you by word or deed.