`It goes against my wishes to have it in progress just now, I assure you, sir,' said Mrs. Todgers; `but Miss Pecksniff's mind was set upon it, and it really is time that Miss Pecksniff was married. That cannot be denied, sir.'
`No,' said Mr. Chuzzlewit, `assuredly not. Her sister takes no part in the proceedings?'
`Oh, dear, no, sir. Poor thing!' said Mrs. Todgers, shaking her head, and dropping her voice. `Since she has known the worst, she has never left my room; the next room.'
`Is she prepared to see me?' he inquired.
`Quite prepared, sir.'
`Then let us lose no time.\q>
Mrs. Todgers conducted him into the little back chamber commanding the prospect of the cistern; and there, sadly different from when it had first been her lodging, sat poor Merry, in mourning weeds. The room looked very dark and sorrowful; and so did she; but she had one friend beside her, faithful to the last. Old Chuffey.
When Mr. Chuzzlewit sat down at her side, she took his hand and put it to her lips. She was in great grief. He too was agitated; for he had not seen her since their parting in the churchyard.
`I judged you hastily,' he said, in a low voice. `I fear I judged you cruelly. Let me know that I have your forgiveness.'
She kissed his hand again; and retaining it in hers, thanked him in a broken voice, for all his kindness to her since.
`Tom Pinch,' said Martin, `has faithfully related to me all that you desired him to convey; at a time when he deemed it very improbable that he would ever have an opportunity of delivering your message. Believe me, that if I ever deal again with an ill-advised and unawakened nature, hiding the strength it thinks its weakness I will have long and merciful consideration for it.'
`You had for me; even for me,' she answered. `I quite believe it. I said the words you have repeated, when my distress was very sharp and hard to bear; I say them now for others; but I cannot urge them for myself. You spoke to me after you had seen and watched me day by day. There was great consideration in that. You might have spoken, perhaps, more kindly; you might have tried to invite my confidence by greater gentleness; but the end would have been the same.'
He shook his head in doubt, and not without some inward self-reproach.
`How can I hope,' she said, `that your interposition would have prevailed with me, when I know how obdurate I was! I never thought at all; dear Mr. Chuzzlewit, I never thought at all; I had no thought, no heart, no care to find one; at that time. It has grown out of my trouble. I have felt it in my trouble. I wouldn't recall my trouble such as it is and has been -- and it is light in comparison with trials which hundreds of good people suffer every day, I know -- I wouldn't recall it to-morrow, if I could. It has been my friend, for without it no one could have changed me; nothing could have changed me. Do not mistrust me because of these tears; I cannot help them. I am grateful for it, in my soul. Indeed I am!'
`Indeed she is!' said Mrs. Todgers. `I believe it, sir.'
`And so do I!' said Mr. Chuzzlewit. `Now, attend to me, my dear. Your late husband's estate, if not wasted by the confession of a large debt to the broken office (which document, being useless to the runaways, has been sent over to England by them: not so much for the sake of the creditors as for the gratification of their dislike to him, whom they suppose to be still living), will be seized upon by law; for it is not exempt,
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