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I fall into Disgrace If the room to which my bed was removed were a sentient thing that could give evidence, I might appeal to it at this daywho sleeps there now, I wonder!to bear witness for me what a heavy heart I carried to it. I went up there, hearing the dog in the yard bark after me all the way while I climbed the stairs; and, looking as blank and strange upon the room as the room looked upon me, sat down with my small hands crossed, and thought. I thought of the oddest things. Of the shape of the room, of the cracks in the ceiling, of the paper on the wall, of the flaws in the window-glass making ripples and dimples on the prospect, of the washing- stand being rickety on its three legs, and having a discontented something about it, which reminded me of Mrs. Gummidge under the influence of the old one. I was crying all the time, but, except that I was conscious of being cold and dejected, I am sure I never thought why I cried. At last in my desolation I began to consider that I was dreadfully in love with little Emly, and had been torn away from her to come here where no one seemed to want me, or to care about me, half as much as she did. This made such a very miserable piece of business of it, that I rolled myself up in a corner of the counterpane, and cried myself to sleep. I was awakened by somebody saying Here he is! and uncovering my hot head. My mother and Peggotty had come to look for me, and it was one of them who had done it. Davy, said my mother. Whats the matter? I thought it very strange that she should ask me, and answered Nothing. I turned over on my face, I recollect, to hide my trembling lip, which answered her with greater truth. Davy, said my mother. Davy, my child! I dare say no words she could have uttered would have affected me so much, then, as her calling me her child. I hid my tears in the bedclothes, and pressed her from me with my hand, when she would have raised me up. This is your doing, Peggotty, you cruel thing! said my mother. I have no doubt at all about it. How can you reconcile it to your conscience, I wonder, to prejudice my own boy against me, or against anybody who is dear to me? What do you mean by it, Peggotty? Poor Peggotty lifted up her hands and eyes, and only answered in a sort of paraphrase of the grace I usually repeated after dinner, Lord forgive you, Mrs. Copperfield, and for what you have said this minute, may you never be truly sorry! Its enough to distract me, cried my mother. In my honeymoon, too, when my most inveterate enemy might relent, one would think, and not envy me a little peace of mind and happiness. Davy, you naughty boy! Peggotty, you savage creature! Oh, dear me! cried my mother, turning from one of us to the other in her pettish, wilful manner. What a troublesome world this is, when one has the most right to expect it to be as agreeable as possible! I felt the touch of a hand that I knew was neither hers nor Peggottys, and slipped to my feet at the bedside. It was Mr. Murdstones hand, and he kept it on my arm as he said Whats this? Clara, my love, have you forgotten?Firmness, my dear! I am very sorry, Edward, said my mother. I meant to be very good, but I am so uncomfortable. Indeed! he answered. Thats a bad hearing, so soon, Clara. I say its very hard I should be made so now, returned my mother, pouting; and it isvery hardisnt it? |
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