for my knowledge of Greek. At thirteen I wrote Greek with ease; and at fifteen my command of that language
was so great that I not only composed Greek verses in lyric metres, but could converse in Greek fluently
and without embarrassmentan accomplishment which I have not since met with in any scholar of my
times, and which in my case was owing to the practice of daily reading off the newspapers into the best
Greek I could furnish extempore; for the necessity of ransacking my memory and invention for all sorts
and combinations of periphrastic expressions as equivalents for modern ideas, images, relations of things,
&c., gave me a compass of diction which would never have been called out by a dull translation of moral
essays, &c. That boy, said one of my masters, pointing the attention of a stranger to me, that boy
could harangue an Athenian mob better than you and I could address an English one. He who honoured
me with this eulogy was a scholar, and a ripe and a good one, and of all my tutors was the only one
whom I loved or reverenced. Unfortunately for me (and, as I afterwards learned, to this worthy mans
great indignation), I was transferred to the care, first of a blockhead, who was in a perpetual panic lest
I should expose his ignorance; and finally to that of a respectable scholar at the head of a great school
on an ancient foundation. This man had been appointed to his situation byCollege, Oxford, and was
a sound, well-built scholar, but (like most men whom I have known from that college) coarse, clumsy,
and inelegant. A miserable contrast he presented, in my eyes, to the Etonian brilliancy of my favourite
master; and beside, he could not disguise from my hourly notice the poverty and meagreness of his
understanding. It is a bad thing for a boy to be and to know himself far beyond his tutors, whether in
knowledge or in power of mind. This was the case, so far as regarded knowledge at least, not with myself
only, for the two boys, who jointly with myself composed the first form, were better Grecians than the
head-master, though not more elegant scholars, nor at all more accustomed to sacrifice to the Graces.
When I first entered I remember that we read Sophocles; and it was a constant matter of triumph to us,
the learned triumvirate of the first form, to see our Archididascalus (as he loved to be called) conning
our lessons before we went up, and laying a regular train, with lexicon and grammar, for blowing up and
blasting (as it were) any difficulties he found in the choruses; whilst we never condescended to open our
books until the moment of going up, and were generally employed in writing epigrams upon his wig or
some such important matter. My two class-fellows were poor, and dependent for their future prospects
at the university on the recommendation of the head-master; but I, who had a small patrimonial property,
the income of which was sufficient to support me at college, wished to be sent thither immediately. I
made earnest representations on the subject to my guardians, but all to no purpose. One, who was
more reasonable and had more knowledge of the world than the rest, lived at a distance; two of the other
three resigned all their authority into the hands of the fourth; and this fourth, with whom I had to negotiate,
was a worthy man in his way, but haughty, obstinate, and intolerant of all opposition to his will. After
a certain number of letters and personal interviews, I found that I had nothing to hope for, not even a
compromise of the matter, from my guardian. Unconditional submission was what he demanded, and
I prepared myself, therefore, for other measures. Summer was now coming on with hasty steps, and
my seventeenth birthday was fast approaching, after which day I had sworn within myself that I would
no longer be numbered amongst schoolboys. Money being what I chiefly wanted, I wrote to a woman
of high rank, who, though young herself, had known me from a child, and had latterly treated me with
great distinction, requesting that she would lend me five guineas. For upwards of a week no answer
came, and I was beginning to despond, when at length a servant put into my hands a double letter with
a coronet on the seal. The letter was kind and obliging. The fair writer was on the sea-coast, and in
that way the delay had arisen; she enclosed double of what I had asked, and good- naturedly hinted that
if I should never repay her, it would not absolutely ruin her. Now, then, I was prepared for my scheme.
Ten guineas, added to about two which I had remaining from my pocket money, seemed to me sufficient
for an indefinite length of time; and at that happy age, if no definite boundary can be assigned to ones
power, the spirit of hope and pleasure makes it virtually infinite.
It is a just remark of Dr. Johnsons (and, what cannot often be said of his remarks, it is a very feeling
one), that we never do anything consciously for the last time (of things, that is, which we have long been
in the habit of doing) without sadness of heart. This truth I felt deeply when I came to leave -, a place
which I did not love, and where I had not been happy. On the evening before I left- -for ever, I grieved
when the ancient and lofty schoolroom resounded with the evening service, performed for the last time