before he could frame a message to the impeccable world. You remember that when I was leaving him
for the last time he had asked whether I would be going home soon, and suddenly cried after me: "Tell
them!" . . . I had waited--curious I'll own, and hopeful, too--only to hear him shout, "No--nothing." That
was all then--and there shall be nothing more; there shall be no message, unless such as each of us
can interpret for himself from the language of facts, that are so often more enigmatic than the craftiest
arrangement of words. He made, it is true, one more attempt to deliver himself; but that, too, failed, as
you may perceive if you look at the sheet of greyish foolscap enclosed here. He had tried to write; do
you notice the commonplace hand? It is headed: "The Fort, Patusan." I suppose he had carried out his
intention of making out of his house a place of defence. It was an excellent plan: a deep ditch, an earth
wall topped by a palisade, and at the angles guns mounted on platforms to sweep each side of the square.
Doramin had agreed to furnish him the guns; and so each man of his party would know there was a
place of safety, upon which every faithful partisan could rally in case of some sudden danger. All this
showed his judicious foresight, his faith in the future. What he called "my own people"--the liberated
captives of the Sherif--were to make a distinct quarter of Patusan, with their huts and little plots of ground
under the walls of the stronghold. Within he would be an invincible host in himself. "The Fort, Patusan." No
date, as you observe. What is a number and a name to a day of days? It is also impossible to say whom
he had in his mind when he seized the pen: Stein--myself--the world at large--or was this only the aimless
startled cry of a solitary man confronted by his fate? "An awful thing has happened," he wrote before
he flung the pen down for the first time; look at the ink blot resembling the head of an arrow under these
words. After a while he had tried again, scrawling heavily, as if with a hand of lead, another line. "I must
now at once . . ." The pen had spluttered, and that time he gave it up. There's nothing more; he had
seen a broad gulf that neither eye nor voice could span. I can understand this. He was overwhelmed by
the inexplicable; he was overwhelmed by his own personality--the gift of that destiny which he had done
his best to master.
`I send you also an old letter--a very old letter. It was found carefully preserved in his writing-case. It is
from his father, and by the date you can see he must have received it a few days before he joined the
Patna. Thus it must be the last letter he ever had from home. He had treasured it all these years. The
good old parson fancied his sailor-son. I've looked in at a sentence here and there. There is nothing
in it except just affection. He tells his "dear James" that the last long letter from him was very "honest
and entertaining." He would not have him "judge men harshly or hastily." There are four pages of it, easy
morality and family news. Tom had "taken orders." Carrie's husband had "money losses." The old chap
goes on equably trusting Providence and the established order of the universe, but alive to its small
dangers and its small mercies. One can almost see him, grey-haired and serene in the inviolable shelter
of his book-lined, faded, and comfortable study, where for forty years he had conscientiously gone over
and over again the round of his little thoughts about faith and virtue, about the conduct of life and the
only proper manner of dying; where he had written so many sermons, where he sits talking to his boy,
over there, on the other side of the earth. But what of the distance? Virtue is one all over the world,
and there is only one faith, one conceivable conduct of life, one manner of dying. He hopes his "dear
James" will never forget that "who once gives way to temptation, in the very instant hazards his total
depravity and everlasting ruin. Therefore resolve fixedly never, through any possible motives, to do anything
which you believe to be wrong." There is also some news of a favourite dog; and a pony, "which all you
boys used to ride," had gone blind from old age and had to be shot. The old chap invokes Heaven's
blessing; the mother and all the girls then at home send their love. . . . No, there is nothing much in
that yellow frayed letter fluttering out of his cherishing grasp after so many years. It was never answered,
but who can say what converse he may have held with all these placid, colourless forms of men and
women peopling that quiet corner of the world as free of danger or strife as a tomb, and breathing equably
the air of undisturbed rectitude. It seems amazing that he should belong to it, he to whom so many
things "had come." Nothing ever came to them; they would never be taken unawares, and never be called
upon to grapple with fate. Here they all are, evoked by the mild gossip of the father, all these brothers
and sisters, bone of his bone and flesh of his flesh, gazing with clear unconscious eyes, while I seem to
see him, returned at last, no longer a mere white speck at the heart of an immense mystery, but of full