with a broken wing, might hop and flutter into some hole to die quietly of inanition there. This is what
I had thrust upon him: a definitely small thing; and--behold!--by the manner of its reception it loomed in
the dim light of the candle like a big, indistinct, perhaps a dangerous shadow. "You don't mind me not
saying anything appropriate," he burst out. "There isn't anything one could say. Last night already you
had done me no end of good. Listening to me--you know. I give you my word I've thought more than
once the top of my head would fly off . . ." He darted--positively darted--here and there, rammed his
hands into his pockets, jerked them out again, flung his cap on his head. I had no idea it was in him to
be so airily brisk. I thought of a dry leaf imprisoned in an eddy of wind, while a mysterious apprehension,
a load of indefinite doubt, weighed me down in my chair. He stood stock-still, as if struck motionless by
a discovery. "You have given me confidence," he declared, soberly. "Oh! for God's sake, my dear fellow--
don't!" I entreated, as though he had hurt me. "All right. I'll shut up now and henceforth. Can't prevent
me thinking, though. . . . Never mind! . . . I'll show yet . . ." He went to the door in a hurry, paused
with his head down, and came back, stepping deliberately. "I always thought that if a fellow could begin
with a clean slate . . . And now you . . . in a measure . . . yes . . . clean slate." I waved my hand,
and he marched out without looking back; the sound of his footfalls died out gradually behind the closed
door--the unhesitating treat of a man walked in broad daylight.
`But as to me, left alone with the solitary candle, I remained strangely unenlightened. I was no longer
young enough to behold at every turn the magnificence that besets our insignificant footsteps in good
and in evil. I smiled to think that, after all, it was yet he, of us two, who had the light. And I felt sad.
A clean slate, did he say? As if the initial word of each our destiny were not graven in imperishable
characters upon the face of a rock.'