shoulder of the nearest lascar, but he didn't. Something held his arms down along his sides. He was
not afraid--oh no! only he just couldn't--that's all. He was not afraid of death perhaps, but I'll tell you
what, he was afraid of the emergency. His confounded imagination had evoked for him all the horrors of
panic, the trampling rush, the pitiful screams, boats swamped--all the appalling incidents of a disaster at
sea he had ever heard of. He might have been resigned to die, but I suspect he wanted to die without
added terrors, quietly, in a sort of peaceful trance. A certain readiness to perish is not so very rare,
but it is seldom that you meet men whose souls, steeled in the impenetrable armour of resolution, are
ready to fight a losing battle to the last, the desire of peace waxes stronger as hope declines, till at last
it conquers the very desire of life. Which of us here has not observed this, or maybe experienced something
of that feeling in his own person--this extreme weariness of emotions, the vanity of effort, the yearning
for rest? Those striving with unreasonable forces know it well--the shipwrecked castaways in boats,
wanderers lost in a desert, men battling against the unthinking might of nature, or the stupid brutality
of crowds.'