On our return to the house we found the postman had arrived and had brought a letter appointing Theobald
to a rural deanery which had lately fallen vacant by the death of one of the neighbouring clergy who had
held the office for many years. The bishop wrote to Theobald most warmly, and assured him that he
valued him as among the most hard-working and devoted of his parochial clergy. Christina of course
was delighted, and gave me to understand that it was only an instalment of the much higher dignities
which were in store for Theobald when his merits were more widely known.
I did not then foresee how closely my godson's life and mine were in after years to be bound up together; if
I had, I should doubtless have looked upon him with different eyes and noted much to which I paid no
attention at the time. As it was, I was glad to get away from him, for I could do nothing for him, or chose
to say that I could not, and the sight of so much suffering was painful to me. A man should not only
have his own way as far as possible, but he should only consort with things that are getting their own
way so far that they are at any rate comfortable. Unless for short times under exceptional circumstances,
he should not even see things that have been stunted or starved, much less should he eat meat that
has been vexed by having been over-driven or under-fed, or afflicted with any disease; nor should he
touch vegetables that have not been well grown. For all these things cross a man; whatever a man comes
in contact with in any way forms a cross with him which will leave him better or worse, and the better
things he is crossed with the more likely he is to live long and happily. All things must be crossed a little
or they would cease to live - but holy things, such for example as Giovanni Bellini's saints, have been
crossed with nothing but what is good of its kind.